An Advanced Spiritual Concept

Hey sister!

I just wanted to pop on here tonight because I've been feeling that internal push, that nudge to share this message with you. So here I am, 9:00 at night, I was just ready to read a book for the rest of the night and then boom, this came in. I trust that it's meant for you. 

I almost didn't share this with you because I felt like maybe it was a little bit advanced and I thought it might rub some people the wrong way or offend some.

Then I realized, it's not my job to filter and it's not my job to keep these messages that are coming through for you. 

What I'm gonna talk to you about tonight is of a personal nature, but I want you to understand the correlation between working on yourself and really doing this deep work. The value of doing this kind of deep work on yourself is what frees you to be of service to the world,

to be a light in the world,

to be a beacon for other people,

to show the way,

to light the way,

to lead the way for others.

So the most powerful way that you can lead a meaningful life, a life aligned with your purpose, your joy, your passion - is for you to really be digging in to anything that might be holding you back from doing so. [It's not about you running out there and doing as many things as you can for as many people as you can and running yourself totally exhausted.]

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It's about number one, being in your own joy, living this life to the fullest, but number two, I know a lot of us have that desire to be of service in the world, to help others in some way that meaningful to us.

And the best way you could do that is by being the absolute best version of yourself.

I'm going to give you a little bit of backstory because I think if I just jumped right into the main premise, it might seem a little bit odd.

Over three years ago, going on four years ago, I experienced in my family something that was devastating. It felt, at the time, like a betrayal by one of the closest members in my family to me.

I was devastated. I was crushed because this was someone who I had gone to the ends of the earth and back for. I'm not trying to toot my own horn or anything, but this person had faced extreme difficulties in their life and I went to extreme measures to be there for that person, for that family member. And in 2014 there was an event where in my human perception that person chose to betray me and the other members of my family.

This was the beginning of me really being invited to explore forgiveness. What that meant to me and what that looked like. 

I'm not talking about other times in my life where I've forgiven people or I needed to ask for forgiveness for more surface-y type things or maybe even secondary level type things. This was the deepest thing that I had ever experienced where I wondered if forgiveness was even truly possible.

And there was that deeper part of me that said all things are forgivable.

All things. I honestly believe all things are forgivable. But I needed to connect that deeper knowing with my head. The part of me that felt, 'I don't understand how that's forgivable though. I just don't. I just don't.' And I didn't want to just say the words and lie to myself that I had forgiven this person. I didn't want to just for the sake of sweeping it under the rug and making myself feel better and making myself feel like I'm a good person. I wanted to believe those words so bad because I didn't want to be carrying this around but I knew for a part of me that just wasn't 100 percent true.

Over the last three or so years, it's been this little thing in the back of my mind that I've always wanted to learn more about. I wanted to really understand forgiveness. I wanted to know how does someone forgive a person who they feel did what they did absolutely intentionally. It wasn't an 'oopsie' or a misunderstanding or anything else like that.

This was very much planned and calculated and intentional.

It really invited me and gave me the opportunity to step up to the plate and really understand the life lesson of forgiveness.

One of the first things that I learned about this is that, forgiving someone doesn't mean that you are agreeing with what they did.

The second thing that I realized was that I don't need to understand this person in order to forgive them. Even if I can't understand or justify their actions it doesn't mean that I can't forgive them. 

What I really wanted to get into tonight was when I realized that every single experience in your life is to your benefit

every single moment,

every single experience is to your highest and best benefit.

And that it's the human side of us that's attached to whether or not that action was good or bad, right or wrong, forgivable or not forgivable. That is the human ego side of us that has attached to that situation if it's good, if it's bad, how hurtful it is, how wrong that person was.

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So how could something that someone else did that wronged you or hurt you so much be to your benefit?

Even in the times where you are the most angered, the most upset, the most offended, the most hurt, the most dumbfounded - eventually you come to a place where you see that, that served you in some way that served you.

Here I am now sharing with you about forgiveness when the last three and a half I've been wondering how on earth could I ever forgive this person? Now here I am learning how to do that and sharing it with you. So maybe your own story of forgiveness will help heal somebody else who needs that type of healing as well.

The message that I want to come across is be curious about what you're attaching your self worth to, your happiness to, your ideas to and your stories to.

I had made a story. 

I'm not condemning myself for taking this long to truly understand forgiveness. Three and a half years, that was my process and that's the time that I needed divine timing. I trust that everything had to unfold exactly as it did, but I now understand that I was connecting my human thoughts, my human perception, not my soul, not my divine connection, not my knowingness or my truth of who I am and who you are. I was in my mind making this kit, this story that this person did me wrong and I don't know if I can forgive them, and I don't know how to forgive them, and I don't understand why they did what they did, and how could anyone ever do that, and I would never do that to someone. I don't even know if I can understand how they can do this, how can I forgive it? 

They don't deserve my forgiveness. 

There's all this type of ego, human based story, going on and when I drop from my head into my heart I realized, you know what, yeah, that really hurt me and that's okay. Yeah, it was really sad and that's okay, but there's something about that experience that was for me that was for my highest and best evolution, learning expansion.

Something about that was good for me.

If you're in a place where something bad has happened to you and you're not yet in the place of being like, you know what? I know why that happened to me because it taught me this or it helped me learn that or pointed me in the direction to this.

If you're not yet in the place of being able to say or to pinpoint how that helped you or how it improved you or how it redirected your steps or how it taught you who not to be - if you're not able to have that clarity just yet, at least you can potentially get to the place of trusting that it was for your highest and best good. 

You can take it one step further and silently thank that person, just as Wayne Dyer did with his dad, for playing the role that they needed to play to support you in your evolvement, in your enlightenment, in your growth.

I hope that resonates.

Let me know if any of this resonates with you, if this message was meant for you, say hi.

I hope you enjoy the rest of your evening (or morning, or afternoon). I send you so much love and I will see you next time.