Well This Is Embarrassing...

Hello my beautiful soul sister,

A couple days ago I made a mistake that I thought I wouldn't have to worry about now that I'm in my 30's.

It was a west coast torrential downpour, and my hubby, me, and my fur baby were all soaked from our weekly Sunday adventure. 

Shaking the rain off of us and leaping into the nice dry car, I looked down at the gas gauge, only to see we had ONE kilometre left before we ran out of gas - and the nearest station was 3 km's away....uphill.  

I started to panic inside and feel really stressed that I got us into this mess! I saw flashes of us all freezing cold and wet, walking forever in the downpour on the side of the highway to get gas, only to turn around and walk all the way back to the car even wetter and colder than before.

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And then, all within seconds inside my own mind, I realized that ego was running away with me again, and that if I just relaxed for a moment, I could sort something better out - IF we even really did run out of gas at all. 

For instance, my sister was in town so we could call her to pick up some gas. Or, we could call a cab to take us to a station and back. Not the end of the world like I had initially allowed ego to convince me of. 

I started driving, hopeful but definitely nervous. What's it like to run out of gas? Will I cause an accident? Will I go puttering off the highway with cars honking at me? 

I drove into the unknown, hopeful but afraid, wipers on full blast, and even when the gas gauge hit 0% fuel - we were able to make it to the gas pump no problem. 

This got me thinking , how often do we let our mind create these terrifying scenarios, only to find out there was nothing to be worried about at all? 

Even worse, how many times have we missed out, sat on the sidelines, or passed on something that could've been great - because we weren't sure how it would all pan out? 

Not only was everything okay, but just when we thought we were going to be stranded and wet on the side of the highway, we actually got our gas tank filled to the brim and drove home laughing and chatting the whole way.

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Sometimes in life, beauty, we've got to risk running out of gas. We've got to face the fears our ego would have us believehead on, so we can see they aren't real, and no longer be imprisoned by them. 

And even if they did happen, chances are there's an alternative solution not nearly as scary as your ego would have loved you to believe. 

It would be easier to stay home. Easier to not go out and adventure at all. 

But I tried that kind of life, beauty, and for me, I didn't feel like I was alive in the least.

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What about you, beauty? 

Is there somewhere in your life you've been playing it safe, because you don't know what the outcome will be?

Or maybe your head/ego is playing tricks with you, too?

Whatever it is, if the thought of it working out for the best EXCITES you, that is a soul-clue this path is meant for you. 

I say go for it. Make the leap. Your soul will never steer you wrong. 

It's when we can feel our heart beating that we know we're truly alive! 

And if you never try, you'll never know...

Follow Your Heart Always,

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Jennifer Jayde Spencer